A Liar's World.
...I'm just pissed right now.

And now I'm not.
But I was.
I still probably am.
I don't know how I'm supposed to act.
...Do I get mad? It was a little thing. It was still a lie, none the less. I hate being lied to. I don't care what it was about. I know I lie about how I feel all the time, but it's for both our sakes I'd like to think. It's kind of just for me because I don't want anything to change for the worse. God, it just infuriates me to lie about something so small! If it was him, why not just say it was him?! Just because I don't like him, which by the way, I kind of got over it, doesn't mean I don't like his singing or things like that! It doesn't change my view on the work. If that's why you lied. Ugh. I've just been lied to way too much this past half year. Things were easier when I was a loner. I had no feelings to worry about. But being how I am now, makes me feel like I'm human. I'm living life. It's exhausting, but if I don't have friends, I miss out on so many things as well. Laughing with them, being there for them, having the feeling of being able to be depended on for something, it's exhilarating and comforting at the same time.

I just don't know when it's right for me to say what I need to say.
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